Why? Because I feel like I can’t write anything too personal on here. Call it paranoia but these things to happen. You write something not-so-flattering about someone and then they find out. (I went through my Harriet The Spy stage and people got mad at me, just like in the movie. It wasn’t cool.) So, I’ll keep my personal journal just that- personal.

But anyway. Make sure to check out my other blogs.

I may open another blog (Yes, I know. Another blog.) just to talk about stuff  I find online and think is pretty cool and whatnot. I suppose I could delete everything on this blog and just use it for that… but I dunno. Whatever. We’ll see.

I want this. Now all they have to bring out is an Arrested Development DVD game and I’d be all set.

I spent- literally- all day blogging. Well, almost all day. I took a break to have meals and watch Jeopardy!. But for the rest of the day, I blogged. I updated Kill Jill, I surfed blogs on Student Bloggers, I worked on my new Charlottetown blog, City By The Sea and some other blog-related stuffs.

You could say I’m pretty blogged out.

Besides blogging, I think I’m in a rut. I’m bored all the time. I used to thrive on routine- but now that my routine is too monotonous, I’m so bored with everything. I work, I blog, I write an article or two, I watch a movie or two. Rinse and repeat. I generally no relationships anymore, other than the ones I have with family and my two fellow employees. That’s all I have.

And guess what. Only 66 days until I can have a real life. Huzzah!

Went to town yesterday with Mom and Grandma. Had a good day- much better than the last day we went shopping together and Grandma and I got in a fight in Pizza Delight.

We started the day by going to Dollarama. I’m pretty sure it’s my most favorite store in the whole world (right after Ardene, Michael’s and The Black Market Boutique). I got a load of stuff that I needed: two picture frames, two boxes, a pencil box, a small mirror as well as something I didn’t actually need (a chess set).

We had an early lunch at Wendy’s. I’m so glad there’s one just down from my dorm. That makes me so damn happy. Just think- I could have some delicious chicken strips regularly. *sigh*

Fuck. I have a really bad bug bite by my elbow. It’s round and hard and itches like be beyotch. ACK!

After lunch, we went to my doctor appointment with Dr. Crazy Hippie Man. He’s such a crack pot. Plus, I think he just likes to hear himself talk. Not just talk- but talk about the same things over and over again. Yes, Dr. Crazy Hippie Man. I know the environment sucks and I know that the air probably has something to do with my illness… Guess what. THAT DOESN’T HELP ME.

From there, we went to Vogue and I picked out my new frames. One pair is silver with wide bows and a wicked design and the other are plastic and bright red. I love them both but I figure I’ll probably be wearing the silver ones more often so I got transitions in those ones. The red ones will be for when I’m feeling especially artsy… or if I lose/break my silver ones.

Then we went to the mall and I got my hair cut. It wasn’t exactly like I wanted but I guess it’s okay. It’s a bit emo, a bit 80s. However, I don’t think I’ll be requesting a particular hair styling person again… He’s cute but easily distracted… and always does something more extreme than I want him to. Also, I won’t be asking for an emo cut or else I’ll… well… I’ll get a emo cut. As for my cut, it’s real long in the front and very, very short in the back. He did a crazy part but I’ll never be able to replicate it. Anyway, I guess it will just have to do.

We had dinner at Pizza Delight (returning to the scene of the crime) but there was no fighting or cursing or hissing of any kind. It was actually a very good day. Then Grandma took us home.

I called my brother (the computer expert) and we lead me through the laptop-ordering process on the Dell site. Mine is going to be red with a 17-inch screen. I’m really stoked about getting it and getting used to Windows Vista and all that. My computer is getting really old, slow and probably won’t be with us for much longer. So, getting a laptop for school was definitely the right decision. I’m broke now but… y’know how it goes…

So, this morning, Mom dyed my hair. The color looks good- very dark red. But when it came to styling the cut, I couldn’t get it to look right. It was only this morning that I realized how short it really is. I mean, I’ve had short hair before- shorter than this. But I dunno. I got frustrated and starting crying. Then I suddenly thought about something that happened in grade 11: I’d been dying my hair red for about two years and I loved it. But then I developed a crush on a guy and he wasn’t the type to like girls with unnatural hair color, so I went back to blond. It took me ages to get it back looking normal again. And guess what. He still didn’t like me. So, here I am, going back to having crazy bright red hair and going to college. Yes, I would like to think that maybe I’ll get a boyfriend once I’m there. But I dunno.

I have no idea what to expect from college, and that scares me. Maybe I’m just hormonal because it’s that time of the month. BUT CRAP.

Yesterday morning, Grandpa picked me ‘n Mom up and we went to town. We ate lunch at KFC. Mikey’s girlfriend was working. Then we went to Wal-Mart. I tried on some brown pants but they felt funny. I got a pretty awesome jacket for, like, $12. It looks quite indie, methinks. I rather like it. Then I went to my eye appointment with Dr. Emma Thompson. (If Emma Thompson ever needed a body double, she could call my eye doctor. That’s all I’m saying.)

I told Charlsie I was having an eye appointment so she came and we chatted and giggled and tried on ridiculous frames for a bit while we waited for Dr. Emma Thompson to get there. God, I’ve missed her. She made a few comments about how I’m looking quite emo these days, just because I’ve discovered the awesomeness of black and red clothing. I’m not going for emo, I’m going for artsy. Or alternative. I would dress more indie (because I do consider myself mostly indie) but I don’t look great in straight leg pants and light colors.

As for my eye appointment, I was surprised when she said my eyes were only a little worse than they were the last time I saw her. I thought they would be a lot worse, but I guess I was wrong. She suggested I get lubricating eye drops and use them once a day when I’m on the computer for several hours at a time. (I guess that means every day then.)

After that, we picked up a few things (hair dye, my photos, etc.) and drove home. We stopped at an antique store for a while. Mom bought me a necklace with a crown on it. It’s pretty. While Mom and Grandpa went into another antique store, I walked to the gas station to get something to drink. I bought a cherry slushie- and as it would turn out, one of my oldest friends works there! I hadn’t seen her in about two years. She hugged me and said she was glad I was still short. She was also quite shocked by how many tattoos I now have. I guess a lot of people don’t see me that way- tattooed, that is. I bet a lot of people don’t see me as the type of person who would ever get tattoos, let alone want a lot of them.

I hope the person I show people when I’m in college is a bit more like the true me.

Action Figures I Want Need:
- King Henry VIII Posable Action Figure (View)
- Leonardo Da Vinci (View)
- Vincent Van Gogh (View)
- Sherlock Holmes (View)
- Edgar Allan Poe (View)
- William Shakespeare (View)
- Oscar Wilde (View)
- Marie Antoinette Action Figure (with Ejectable Head) (View)
- Columbia (Rocky Horror Picture Show)
- Sweeney Todd
- Vlad the Impaler (McFarlane’s Monsters Series 3: Six Faces of Madness) (View)
- Dracula (View)
- Mummy (View)
- Werewolf (View)
- Dexter Morgan of Dexter

Wish List: Movies That I Own In VHS But Would Like To Replace With DVDs
- Grease
- Bridget Jones’ Diary
- Beauty & the Beast
- 101 Dalmatians (1996)
- Anne of Green Gables
- Anne of Green Gables: The Sequel
- Anne of Green Gables: The Continuing Story

And just for fun…

Places I Want To See:
- (more) England
- (more) France
- Scotland
- Italy
- Greece
- Hawaii
- New York City
- Los Angeles
- Florida Pirate Festival

Jill Would Like To Get Tattoo’d By/At:
- Hannah Aitchison
- Chris Garver
- Kat Von D
- Merchant Marie
- Sue (Sue’s Tattoos)
- Bob Tyrrell
- Miami Ink (Florida)
- High Voltage Tattoo (California)
- Man’s Ruin Tattoo (North Carolina)
- Female Tattoo Artist Expo (Florida)

Tattoos I Want:
- Athena back piece
- crown over my Tudor tattoo
- journalist pin-up
- wishing well with “Jack & Jill” under it
- diving swallow
- dripping strawberry (ala Across The Universe)
- koi fish
- calla lilies
- Henry VIII portrait
- Sweeney Todd/Edward Scissorhands/Ichabod Crane
- a line from a Death Cab song
- the names “Catherine”, “Anne” and “Jane” around my ankle
- Japanese-style cherry blossom tree
- a chickadee

I have the evening off today. I guess I shouldn’t take this day for granted as it’ll be my only real day off for a while. Tomorrow, I work. Thursday, I have an eye appointment. Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, I work. Tuesday, I have a doctor’s appointment. Wednesday, I work. So yeah.

The store will be staying open until 10 instead of 9 starting on the 27th of this month, so that’s an extra $32 a week (minus deductions) so that’s okay. I need the money. I’ll likely be ordering my laptop very soon, maybe in a week or two. I’ve decided I’d like to have about $300 for my road trip with Claire in late July so I’ll have to save all my money after I get my laptop. Mom said she would lend me some money too and she knows I’ll pay her back as soon as I get it. I’ve had to borrow money from her maybe once in my entire life, so she knows I’m “good for it”, as the gangsters say.

I started a professional blog. I’ll put most of my writing stuff there- i.e. the articles I have published on myUsearch or elsewhere. That blog can be found here: http://jilliannehamilton.wordpress.com. I also started a MySpace- for networking purposes only. It really is a terrible setup, but whatevs. Every indie artist seems to have one and I love indie artists, so blame them for me joining. Anyway, my MySpace can be found here.

A friend of mine recommended I listen to PJ Harvey’s “Stories From The City, Stories From The See” and I finally got around it. So far, it’s okay. Maybe I’d have to be in a more moody-type mood to enjoy it properly.

Since I’m growing more and more fond of photography these days, I thought I would try to be a professional about it a Flickr account. (I know, every kid with a camera is on Flickr, but I thought I would join and see what the fuss was about. I think I’ll also make a photo blog. While I take Journalism for the next two years, one of my major classes is Photography. I’m super excited about it, as I love learning new tricks. So, I think a photo blog might be a neat way to see if I’m making any progress in that area of my life.

I guess that’s what I get for watching 30 Rock before I go to bed.

I rented a couple movies last night: Semi-Pro and Mama’s Boy. I’ve been looking forward to Semi-Pro for months… and I was extremely disappointed. It just wasn’t that funny. The only times I ever laughed was when Will Arnett opened his mouth. (I’m pretty sure he could say “double cheeseburger” and I would find it funny, so that’s not saying much, I suppose.) As for Mama’s Boy, it was the better film of the two. John Heder looks kinda hot as an emo. The charming Anna Faris was pretty good. I sometimes forget that this funny female can actually act. Also, it would appear that Jeff Daniels has gotten fat. Whatevs. The movie had a wicked soundtrack- lots of The Smiths and Morrissey, which I love- but then when I looked up the official movie soundtrack online… nothing by The Smiths or Morrissey! What the hell!!

Turns out a secret about myself has gotten around to more people than I expected. It just resurfaced through a friend of mine. This friend already knew about this secret and clarified the actual story. But it doesn’t matter. I’m just disappointed in a couple young women who found my secret so funny, and felt it needed to be shared. It was immature and insensitive of them to do that.

I’m enjoying 30 Rock these days. I “acquired” about half of the episodes from season 1 and am making my way through them. At first, I wasn’t impressed at all. But Tina Fey is so cool. She shows that girls really can be geeky and still wicked cool. I love that. Alec Baldwin is surprisingly funny. But the character who makes me laugh the most is Kenneth (played by Jack McBrayer). It would appear that McBrayer can only play one kind of character- but he plays it so well! I adore him.

Well, I have one more shift before my four-day stretch is done. I actually fell asleep at work today. Ugh, not good. I blame my dog though. It thundered and she was freaking out for a few hours during the night. Besides, it was a really slow shift and it was just warm enough in the store to make me sleepy. Thankfully, the phone rang and woke me up… and gave me a mini-heart attack… but anyway. I guess I’ll likely have a job at the store next summer if I want it. (I probably won’t want to go to work as soon as I’m done school, but it may be a case of need, rather than want.)

I’m almost done working on a new little website. I wanted a place to put my videos, wallpapers I’ve made, poetry I’ve written, etc. I’ll post a link fairly soon.